I HATE PEOPLE

I always talk about how much I hate people, and whoever I am talking to never really understands.  They either say "WHY?!" or "you're a person too" or something equally ignorant.  I can't really explain my hatred for people but I suppose I can try.

First off, I am really shy.  I can only truly be myself when I'm around people I am completely comfortable with, namely, the swim team.  I don't like to talk to people, I don't really like to interact with people, and I don't work well in big groups. Actually, let me rephrase/elaborate on that.  I don't do well talking to new people/strangers/people of authority.  I don't like to ask for help from anyone either (I don't really know if that applies to me not liking people).  I feel extremely uncomfortable when strangers try to talk to me on the bus or in some other public place. i feel uncomfortable around strangers in general.  I hate when my parents try to make me have dinner with their friends, and when I say "I don't like strangers" they say "Oh you've met them when you were really young".  like COMO MUTHAFUCKIN QUE THAT MEANS I STILL DON'T KNOW THEM!  It's not like I'd remember them at all.  I also don't like to call people for Leadership class.  I'm the class secretary so I guess my job is to call companies and ask for donations? I hate it, mostly because I have to be fakely nice when more times than not, the person on the other end is being extremely rude, which brings me to my next point.

I think another reason why I hate people is because in every single person I've encountered in my life, I find at least one thing annoying about them that just extremely bothers me.  Maybe this means I'm over analytic about everyone.  But I definitely know it makes me the biggest hypocrite in the world.  I, of all people, should know that nobody is perfect.  I don't even know why I "expect" anyone to be.  This doesn't mean I don't love my friends any less though.  I have decided that my opinions on everyone can be gauged on my "hate-dar".  This is my scale of how much I hate everyone.  I have come to the conclusion that not only do I hate people in general, but I also hate everyone individually.  Some people just have lower hate levels on my hate-dar than others.

The last justification I have for my hate for people is crowds.  I hate crowds/groups of people, because they are always in my way.  This happens everywhere - at the mall, at concerts, at swim meets.  But the place I hate it the most is at school. This year, it seems like there are freshmen EVERYWHERE.  I just want to shoot them.  Yes, we were freshmen just last year, but the point is that we're done being the class that everyone hates and now the current freshmen need to be hated.  I will me more than happy to provide most of that hate (: